Opiate

Sweat

I’m sweating,

and breathing

and staring and thinking

and sinking

deeper.

It’s almost like I’m swimming.

The sun is burning hot again

on the hunter

and the fisherman,

and he’s trying to remember when,

but it makes him dizzy.

Seems like I’ve been here before.

Seems so familiar.

Seems like I’m slipping

into a dream within a dream.

Must be the way you whisper.

The sun is setting cool again.

I’m the thinker

and the fisherman

and I’m trying to remember when

but it makes me dizzy.

and I’m sweating,

and breathing,

and staring and thinking

and sinking

deeper

and it’s almost like I’m swimming.

Seems like I’ve been here before.

Seems so familiar.

Seems like I’m slipping

into a dream within a dream.

It’s the way you whisper.

It drags me under

and takes me home.

Hush

I can’t say what I want to,

even if I’m not serious.

Things like…

“Fuck yourself,

kill yourself,

you piece of shit.”

People tell me what to say,

what to think ,

and what to play.

I say…

“Go fuck yourself,

you piece of shit.

Why don’t you go kill yourself?”

Just kidding.

Part of Me

I know you well,

You are a part of me.

I know you better than I know myself.

I know you best,

better than anyone.

I know you better than I know myself.

You don’t judge.

You can’t speak.

You can’t leave.

You can’t hurt me.

You’re just here for me to use.

I know you best,

better than one might think.

I know you better than I know myself.

It’s time for you

to make a sacrifice.

It’s time to die a little.

Give it up.

You are a part of me.

Cold & Ugly

Underneath her skin and jewelry,

hidden in her words and eyes

is a wall that’s cold and ugly

and she’s scared as hell.

Trembling at the thought of feeling.

Wide awake and keeping distance.

Nothing seems to penetrate her.

She’s scared as hell.

I am frightened too

Wide awake

and keeping distance from my soul.

I am scared like you.

Jerk-Off

Someone told me once

that there’s a right and wrong,

and that punishment

would come to those

who dare to cross the line.

But it must not be true

for jerk-offs like you.

Maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole.

but I’m tired of waiting.

Maybe it’s just bullshit and I should play GOD,

and shoot you myself.*

Because I’m tired of waiting.

Consequences dictate

our course of action

and it doesn’t matter what’s right.

It’s only wrong if you get caught.

If consequences dictate

my course of action

I should play GOD

and shoot you myself.*

I’m very tired of waiting.

I should

kick you,

beat you,

fuck you,

and then shoot you in your fucking head.*

* All references to “shoot you in your fucking head” since been performed live as “fuck you in your fucking ass” — clearly a more appropriate message for the times.

Opiate

Choices always were a problem for you.

What you need is someone strong to guide you.

Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow,

what you need is someone strong to use you…

like me,

like me.

If you want to get your soul to heaven,

trust in me.

Don’t judge or question.

You are broken now,

but faith can heal you.

Just do everything I tell you to do.

Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow.

Let me lay my holy hand upon you.

My God’s will

becomes me.

When he speaks out,

he speaks through me.

He has needs

like I do.

We both want

to rape you.

Jesus Christ, why don’t you come save my life.

Open my eyes and blind me with your light

and your lies.

The Gaping Lotus Experience

I had a friend once he took some acid

Now he thinks he’s a fire engine

It’s okay until he pisses on your lighter

Kinda smells kinda cool kinda funny anyway

Satan, Satan, Satan…

I had a friend once he took some ecstasy

Tried to marry me and every one in the room

He was sort of loving kinda caring,

kinda tried to fuck my lazy boy

It got a bit messy all over the curtains,

arm chair covers, throw pillows, and carpeting

Satan, Satan, Satan…

I’m getting bored again…